So I decided to brown nose the teacher. Not for the sake of my child getting better treatment but for the sake of making her feel noticed, loved and special. I think it will be good for her and for Sydney. I am a teacher and little acts of attention (nice attention) from parents gives you a great attitude when you are dealing with children. So, I decided to take Sydney lunch for the first time and buy the teacher some lunch too. It was easy and convenient and she seemed to really appreciate it. I will do it again and again for sure.

When I went in to lunch it occurred to me that this is where all the "social" stuff will happen. I am sure it happens other places, but this is where I noticed it. There is adult supervision but not a ton and kids are free to talk, share and interact freely without an adult listening in. They save seats, laugh and make each other feel welcome or not so welcome. Do I step in as a mom and tell Sydney to try to befriend all the kids or do I not? They are supposed to sit in the order they get their food, but you know how that goes. I think I need to instill in her at this early age that she can be friends with whoever and she can sit by anyone and still have great conversation and a great time. How do you do that though? I feel this weird battle of wanting her to be "popular" or well-liked and wanting her to love on others. But granted they are in Kindergarten - helloooo - so I think I just try to find a way for her to feel secure and happy. Honestly at this age, I think it helps for me to show my face. She feels loved and important when mom is there and the other kids see me and are so sweet. So for now I think I will try to show my face every now and then for lunch and then again in the classroom when the teacher needs help. It was fun.

I was scared too. Wondering who she will be friends with, how I can be a part of this world she is in when I am not there, and how others will treat her. For now I will continue to pray. Teach her to be confident and pray for her to be confident and show my face. I will let you know how it goes. In the meantime - email the teacher and ask if she wants a Sonic drink or some lunch!